I am just popping in to let you all know that Andrew and I will be taking a break from the IVF over Christmas time.
We will probably get at it again after the new year but in the mean time we are going to enjoy Christmas. This means I can eat what I want, go where I want, and do whatever the hell I want! Running, swimming, laying in the sun, eating out and lots of seafood....yes please :-) Oh, and don't forget, we can now have sex whenever the hell we feel like it! No more timing, or being told when can and can NOT do it. Woohoo ;-)
We will also be taking some time out to make our relationship stronger.
Unfortunately IVF has taken a huge mental toll on Andrew. It has on me as well, but somehow I haven't reached breaking point yet...however I think if we had kept going over Christmas I would have.
Anyways, this break is going to help get my man nice and strong again :-)
It's odd, I always thought I would be the one to crumble, but it just goes to show that this takes as much out of the guys as it does the girls, even if they don't have to endure the physical side of it. I think sometimes the guys can be easily forgotten about because they aren't constantly shoving drugs down their throats or going to appointments every second day.
I know that Andrew is going to get through this though, and he will be stronger than he ever thought he could be once he does.
I think that IVF can either make or break a relationship, the toll it takes on a couple is massive. It really does test your relationship to it's full extent. Trust, support, love, care and commitment..it's all pushed to the limits at some point throughout this treatment. Even after just going through 2 cycles of IVF I feel as though we are coming close to the end of our tether, I know we won't but it makes me understand why couples who have been going through this for a long time, take months off every so often (even when there's no medical reason they need to do so) rather than keep going cycle after cycle.
I'm sure as hell not going to let IVF break us, the only thing I will let it do is make us the couple that has the relationship that everybody envy's!
Anyhow, I saw my fertility specialist yesterday and she told me she wouldn't have let us go into another cycle over Christmas even if we wanted to, she said we aren't allowed to stress or think about IVF at all until we come back to see her next! So that's exactly what I'm gonna try and do :-)
I'm going to be keeping up the acupuncture, continue eating super healthy as though there is already a bub inside and continue taking vitamins. Hopefully it will make for some nice healthy eggs when it comes time again!
So now that all this is settled, it's time to sit back and relax, enjoy our family and friends, yummy food, and have some nice big smiles on our faces! Yay :-) And also remember everything that we already have to be grateful for, that is very important, and we can't let our want of having baby let us forget that.
So this is goodbye until next year, but in the meantime have a very Merry Christmas, and don't get TOO drunk at new years ;-) haha
Love ya's
xoxox
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